Category: Past

They always told us what to fear
They alway reminded us who was in charge
They alway showed us the men in the dark
People who miss use power
Something sharp
The wrath of god
An angry mob
They always told me what to fear
But they never told me to fear myself

They told me some people go insane
Some times things get twisted in the brain
That some times men see monsters from there mind
But unless your seeing things that aren’t there
Or hearing voices in your head your just fine
They always told me when to be scared
But they never talked about being scared of my self

They said she was weak when she died
That she couldn’t handle
All things we all have in life
That she found it a battle
the things we all have on mind
That she turned her back to the good in her life
They talked about what it meant to be weak
But they never spoke about the strength of the pain in the mind

They always talked about the dirtiness of self pity
About how you would lose respect
If you didn’t wrap it up quickly
They always told us the sin of suicide
The damage that’s left
The mess you’d leave behind
They never spoke of the unrelenting pain of the mind

They always told me how to deal with wicked people
They never told me how to deal with the wicked thing inside myself
They only ever said be good. Keep your mouth shut. And keep your hands to your self
No one ever told me what to do with the part of me that was hurting myself

They always told me what to be afraid of
No one ever warned me about my self


We fall in love with it
The pain inside our head
Obsessing until it becomes part of us
Like a sacrifice to god we love because we fear him ,
Creating the mass epidemic
Of depression and false longing that seems to consume us all

We no longer live in the moment
We capture it on a screen to save it for later
Store it away
For it to grow stale
So maybe some one else can verify it for us
To acknowledge it’s existence

Hope less?
With out verification
Trying to find the meaning of life as if it was something more then just living
Just as our hearts desperately beat only to be able to beat again over and over
with out stoping until it can’t can’t anymore
Why can’t we just live like that
Every day
Over and over
To the best we can
So we are able to tomorrow
Over and over until we fiscally can’t any more
Like the heart


I fell in love with it
Dissecting the past
Toying with the remains
like it meant something
Like I’d find something there
That would open up a view of luminescence dancing in my eyes
Like a final answer to the unvoiced
Untangible questions dancing behind my eyelids

Taking me away from the present leaving a comatose body
Glued to my sick bed
Nocked down and out of reality
By the hurtling impact of my own regrets
Disconnected from reality
Looking for the answers to the future
In what was already gone
Instead of the ripe budding fruit in front of me
Trapped in side my mind
Running on Fumes
When all I needed was to fill my tank with gasoline in front of me
To set flames to the past
Letting the vast cannons of doubt
Burn away

the deep seas churning round and round
the waters blurring all the sound
Do I slip beneath the lips
Of the beast
Do I let my soul release
From the bondage of the land

Do I taste the salt
Let the beasts blood wash away
The dirt that works between the bone
Causing the grinding pain

And as my madness echoes like the whispers of the sky
Twisting in to my ears
Echoes in the mind

I wonder what it would be like to be one with the waves and disappears in to the night

Lovers door

You were always jet black
Green eyes in the dark
Pale lips parted
openings to the heart
Lights Flout
Soft feathers
Hopes drift like ash
Dreams mocked with laughter
By your side
A faithful lover
The past will not stray
Your foolish monsters
Were the only thing that kept my beasts at bay
The winds
They twist strangeness in to faces
A twin that was not there before
Beware the lover
That stands beside you
Do not open the door